All of a sudden, I can hear silent voices, I notice a ray that illuminates the gloomy firmament, smell the sweet odour of flowers, taste the bitterness of loneliness and almost touch infinity. The sun sets up, the moon is rising. Mercury, Venus, Mars, and Jupiter light candles for a forlorn vagrant. My flesh and bones and brains become a new entity. Boiling blood runs through my veins, colours my skin in amaranth red.
I’m seeking shelter for salvation, trying to escape from nothingness, looking for understanding and explanation. The stars shine upon the darkness, sweeping the sand from my path. I’m like a particle of dust drifting around in a world of dualities searching for passion, contentment and sobriety. And I find no rest.
They told me I’m a traveller from before the day of my birth. I have to move on till I grow old, till I stumble and fall, worn out and exhausted – up and down, back and forth, over mountains and seas, across deserts and meadows. You cannot stand still, they say. And I believe them.
There is no sky. Steppes and hills, and forests. The town is small. The streets are narrow. They all are walled by wooden buildings with thatched roofs. Dusk and moonlight, and silence. No one there.
The storm is rolling in from the north. The wind is tender. It rubs branches together over sinister surfaces of the river flowing silently somewhere in the dark. The fields lay abandoned, the crops are unharvested. Apricot, cherry and apple trees. Rotten fruits on the ground.
The land of the dead – and I don’t know why I’m here.
Это та блаженная радость, которую я испытываю по отношению к мужу. Люблю, люблю, люблю.